Daily Mail, 'The battle to rebuild our family: Major Stewart Hill became a 'social hand grenade' after a Taliban bomb tore into his brain. Now he and his award-winning actress daughter Liv Hill tell how he learned to be her daddy again.'

By Richard Pendlebury for the Daily Mail 

Actress Liv Hill remembers ‘every vivid detail’ of the day a catastrophe changed her family’s life for ever.

She had woken with the golden glow of a summer morning flooding her bedroom. For a while she lay and imagined that celestial figures were flitting about her bed. It was the charming daydream of an artistic but introverted nine-year-old girl.

Eventually, she went downstairs to find her mother, Melissa. ‘I’ve been talking to the angels,’ she told her.

Stewart Hill was left without his memory after a Taliban bomb was catapulted at his head during the Afghan war in 2009. Now in an exclusive interview, he discusses with his daughter how this became a turning point - and he has appeared in a West End play about Afghanistan, directed by Trevor Nunn

Stewart Hill was left without his memory after a Taliban bomb was catapulted at his head during the Afghan war in 2009. Now in an exclusive interview, he discusses with his daughter how this became a turning point - and he has appeared in a West End play about Afghanistan, directed by Trevor Nunn

The effect of this statement was unexpectedly traumatic. ‘Mum already looked unhappy but as soon as I said that she burst into tears,’ Liv recalls. ‘I had no idea why I had made her so upset. Of course she thought it meant that Daddy was dead.’

Unknown to Liv, there had been a knock on the door at 1am that same morning; a visitation that any family with a loved one serving in Afghanistan had come to dread.

On the step was an Army officer with devastating news. Liv’s father — Melissa’s husband — Major Stewart Hill, Officer Commanding B Company, 2nd Mercian, had suffered a serious head wound in Helmand the previous day. He was not expected to survive.

This summer marks the tenth anniversary of the bloodiest period of Britain’s most recent war in Afghanistan. In July and August 2009, 41 British soldiers were killed. Many more were wounded, often sustaining life-changing injuries.

The legacy of those wounds and the post-traumatic stress disorder suffered by thousands of veterans remains with us. But this is a story of how something rather wonderful and unexpected can emerge from a disaster.

In the ranks: He spearheaded the 'Panther's Claw' ground offensive before his fatal injury. Here he lost many soldiers, including 18-year-old Private Robbie Laws and he has learnt to become 'content with who I am' over the years

In the ranks: He spearheaded the 'Panther's Claw' ground offensive before his fatal injury. Here he lost many soldiers, including 18-year-old Private Robbie Laws and he has learnt to become 'content with who I am' over the years

I have been privileged to witness the Hill family’s journey unfold over the course of the past decade. I was with Stewart when he was grievously wounded. I first met Liv four months later, at Sandringham House on the Queen’s Norfolk estate, when she was presented to the Prince of Wales, Colonel-in-Chief of the Mercian Regiment. Small and sombre, dressed in a smart winter coat, she was terribly shy.

‘I still am,’ she says.

Up to a point. She has become one of the most acclaimed British actors of her generation.

Aged 16 and in her first professional role, she was nominated for a BAFTA as one of the trio of leads in the BBC’s multi-award winning 2017 mini-series about the Rochdale child abuse scandal, Three Girls.

She received international festival awards for her debut feature film in 2018, Jellyfish, about a girl from a dysfunctional family who discovers a talent for stand-up comedy.

Now 19, this summer she has been starring at the Royal National Theatre in the critically garlanded revival of Caryl Churchill’s play Top Girls about a career-driven woman.

His daughter Liv Hill (pictured far left) went on to play a lead in the BBC's multi-award winning 2017 mini-series about the Rochdale child abuse scandal Three Girls. Initially her parents had reservations about the series but changed their mind once they read the script and 'saw it was a story that needed to be told'

His daughter Liv Hill (pictured far left) went on to play a lead in the BBC's multi-award winning 2017 mini-series about the Rochdale child abuse scandal Three Girls. Initially her parents had reservations about the series but changed their mind once they read the script and 'saw it was a story that needed to be told'

And Liv will play double Oscar winner Glenda Jackson’s younger self in a BBC television adaptation of the novel Elizabeth Is Missing about dementia.

And her father?

He survived. Just. But as a different Stewart Hill from the man who led his men into battle on the morning of July 4, 2009.

We three met again recently around the kitchen table of the Hills’ home in a Derbyshire village.

Liv was back for a brief visit from London. She has never spoken about her family’s trauma and she later described our discussion as feeling like a ‘therapy session’. Often father and daughter were asking questions of each other.

Back in July 2009, Stewart had led a spearhead of the biggest British ground offensive of the Afghan war, codenamed ‘Panther’s Claw’.

His company was to push into an area near Babaji which had been controlled by the Taliban for the previous two years. The aim was to enable locals to vote in the national elections later that summer.

I was embedded with his unit, along with Mail photographer Jamie Wiseman. Stewart cut an impressive figure. Before the operation, he gathered his men and quoted Field Marshal Montgomery: ‘Decision in action, calmness in crisis.’

We spent the first night sleeping in a farmyard before moving to the ‘start line’ for the operation on the other side of an irrigation canal.

As the troops crossed the waterway, Wiseman took a photograph. This was later used by Stewart as the subject of one of his first paintings, which in turn inspired the Turner Prize-winning artist Grayson Perry to interpret it as a tapestry.

The Taliban response was swift. For the rest of a blazing hot day, the troops were hit by ambushes in the dense jungle and small agricultural fields of the ‘green zone’.

But it was not until the light began to fade that casualties occurred. First, an accompanying armoured vehicle was struck by a Taliban rocket. One of Stewart’s soldiers, 18-year-old Private Robbie Laws, was killed instantly.

The vehicle commander lost a leg. A medical evacuation helicopter was called to take the casualties. As Stewart and his company HQ group moved away from the landing zone, another soldier, Lance Corporal David Dennis, 29, of the Light Dragoons, stepped on an enormous improvised explosive device.

The explosion killed Dennis and wounded everyone else in the near vicinity, including Stewart. Two pieces of shrapnel entered his brain, causing irreparable damage.

As he hung between life and death in Afghanistan, his family and friends rallied round at home. Liv recalls being taken strawberry-picking for the day by a friend of her mother’s — a very English response to crisis.

Eventually, Stewart was evacuated to the military wing of a hospital in Birmingham. Though conscious, he had lost large areas of his memory. ‘I thought it was 2001 and Olivia was still 12 months old,’ he recalls.

‘I did not recognise her photograph when they showed it to me. I did not have a nine-year-old daughter as far as I was concerned.

‘Melissa would not allow Olivia to see me until my memory had returned sufficiently to recognise her in the picture.’

The first visit was testing for both father and child. ‘Dad smelled really 'gravelly,' ’ recalls Liv. ‘He still had sand and dust from Afghanistan on his hands. He looked really ill.’

She had been told his memory was bad ‘so I had a list of questions to ask him. The first was 'What is my name?' which he answered correctly. The second was “Who is Homer Simpson’s son?”

‘We had both loved the Simpsons and watched it together. But he couldn’t remember Bart and I thought, 'Oh my God, Daddy’s really sick.' That was a moment of shock!’

They both laugh at the absurdity of the exchange now.

Stewart was well enough to attend his battalion’s medal ceremony at Sandringham that November. But the long-term impairments caused by his head injury were apparent; memory and hearing loss, anger issues, imbalance and a sometimes embarrassing lack of restraint.

‘He has become a social hand grenade,’ Melissa told me at the time.

The next few years were very difficult for the Hill family as Stewart saw the life he had expected to lead fall away and struggled to cope. He felt abandoned by the military.

‘The worst week came the following May,’ he says. ‘I got a phone call to say I was selected for promotion to the rank of Lieutenant Colonel. I thought 'Yes! This is my career made, I am back on track.'

‘But that same week I went to Headley Court in Surrey [then the military rehabilitation centre] and saw my care worker.

‘They wanted me to do a presentation on my brain injury. The following morning I was lying crying on my bed because I did not know where to start. My injury was preventing me. And that was that as far as the Army was concerned.’

Liv asks him: ‘And how long did it take you for you to accept that?’

‘Oh, by 2012 when I was medically discharged. I wanted to be out by then,’ says her father.

‘Because you were angry at them?’ she continues.

‘Yes, because I was angry. My life was s***,’ says Stewart.

Liv tells him: ‘The times I remembered you before the injury were very happy times. I was a daddy’s girl growing up and you were often away and that made me sad. Then the dynamic changed. It did not help that when you got the injury you would get angry very quickly.

‘It was challenging. We butted heads. It became a testy relationship because of my age and because of your injury.’

She adds: ‘We still butt heads now, but I have so much respect for what you went through and the recovery. As a family we have learned to communicate.’

Stewart’s epiphany was the discovery of his creative abilities.

In recent years he has appeared in the West End in a play about Afghanistan, directed by Trevor Nunn. He is also a published poet and accomplished landscape and portrait painter. Actor Ray Winstone — whom he met while working on the play and who has supported him — and the Duke of Bedford are among an eclectic range of public figures he has put on canvas.

At the same time, his older daughter — he has an eight-year-old as well — found her own place in the arts world.

Aged 14, she began to attend the Nottingham Actors Studio. At 16, she had her first professional audition — for Three Girls.

‘I only went to gain some audition experience,’ she says. ‘All I knew was they wanted girls who were natural. The performance should be very understated and subtle. Whatever they saw in me was right for the character.’

After the second audition, she was told she had the part of Ruby, one of the three abused girls of the title role. At first, her parents had their reservations because of the subject matter and strong language the part demanded. ‘But we read the script several times and saw it was a story that needed to be told,’ says Stewart.

On set, she had to be accompanied by a chaperone because of her age. During filming, she met the girl she was portraying.

‘She talked about her own experiences as if she was making a cup of tea,’ says Liv. ‘It was so strange and awful it just seemed to have gone over her head.’

The role ‘took me completely out of my bubble from this lovely home in Derbyshire. It was very humbling.’ Three Girls won a host of awards and Liv got a BAFTA nomination for best supporting actress. She took her mum to the ceremony. Within a month of finishing the drama, she was filming the lead role in Jellyfish, which won her more rave reviews and prizes at the Edinburgh International Film Festival and a French film festival.

Then she played a serving girl opposite Charlotte Rampling in the film adaptation of Sarah Waters’s novel The Little Stranger.

That won her a London Critics’ Circle nomination for best young performer. Now she will appear opposite film and theatrical legend Glenda Jackson.

‘I feel incredibly lucky to be working alongside such experienced and talented actors, especially Glenda Jackson,’ she says.

Meanwhile, her father, 48, has achieved a kind of peace. ‘My improvement is through the arts,’ he says. ‘I am the living proof of the generation of new neural pathways. Every day is a little bit better.’

He has a new quote to live by. ‘Theodore Roosevelt said 'comparison is the thief of joy'. I had wasted so much energy comparing myself post injury to my old self, to others who were never injured and to those who have different kinds of injuries.

‘I have stopped doing that. I have to be content with who I have become.’

On the tenth anniversary ‘of the worst day of my life’, he visited Wendy Laws, the mother of Private Robbie Laws, whom he had not seen for several years.

‘I’m told that after I came out of the coma, I would ask how Robbie was and they would say 'he’s dead' and I would start to cry.

‘And the next day I would wake and ask the same question again and the same thing would happen. That went on for several days. I am proud that I cared for my soldiers.

‘In the last few months I have come to feel I am using the 'energies' that were lost by those soldiers who were killed that day.

‘I am using their energy. It would be a dishonour to them if I forgot that.’ 

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